So I’m in a career track that I’m not even sure I could enjoy someday, the only companion I had who would be glad to see me come home everyday is gone, my mind is just an endless stream of negatives thoughts and bottled up emotions, and my body refuses to cooperate with the pile of work I still have left to finish.

I need to go somewhere where I can be happy.

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Why must everything have to be so difficult? I’m trying my best, working my hardest just to be happy. Yet I still end up finding myself consumed by doubt and frustration. There’s nothing more that I want in this world than to be with you, and I will stop at nothing to finally be in your arms again. I hate this place. I hate my life here. There are too many limitations; too many shackles. People pull you down and make your life harder. It’s only you who can light up my heart and take me back down to earth again. Here, there is nothing for me. Wherever you are, that’s where my everything waits for me. I can only work so hard just to be with you someday. And someday, all of this will pay off. Because I knew from the start that you’re worth it.

It will get easier soon, and we will be the happiest we’ve ever been.